Intervention: Pt 2
I went to the bar last night and among the friends present was ThatFriend. Somehow or other, we fell into “our thing” and before long everyone we knew had left. As soon as we were alone, he suggested...
View ArticleYou Don’t Look Happy
Continued from The Night of the Bathtub Obviously it wasn’t the last time I saw him, but I spent the first several months of our friendship believing that every time would be the last, up until I left...
View ArticleWhy Tell?
There is something that no one knows. Something that I’ve never told anyone, well almost, because you see the one time that I did tell it only made my life worse. But that was a long time ago- March...
View ArticleSelf Doubt
I think many, if not most –if not all– survivors of abuse sometimes wonder if maybe they were wrong. Maybe we weren’t really abused. I know I do. It’s not rational, it’s not right, but that nagging...
View ArticlePretty Girl
I know I’m a pretty girl. I started modeling when I was 19, you may have seen me, but then again it’s just as likely that you haven’t. I was a well-known dominatrix for 11 years, but in street clothes...
View ArticleThe Children of the Heart
I have 3 kids. Not biologically, not even kids that I’ve spoken to in years, but kids that I once spent immense time and love on whose situations I worried about and, honestly, I still do. One is a...
View Article*Pop*
Of the 2 people together in that room last night, I was the least damaged. Something in Boy was very deeply damaged and he was suffering from it in horrific ways, I wish I could have helped- I tried my...
View ArticleWhose body is it?
This is going to be one of those TMI posts, all about my sexual dysfunction. You’ve been warned. I used to live in my body, it was mine and I knew how to use it. I didn’t always like it, I’ve struggled...
View ArticleFunding
I’ve had a crap week. The shit with HC would have sucked on its own, but what’s worse is the situation with school funding. Because I was unemployed so much this year, I ended up living on my student...
View ArticleWhen is too long?
So other than that one bento box of sushi at the beginning of the week, I haven’t really eaten in close to 2 weeks now. The most I can manage is about 3 small bites, then I’m wracked with horrible...
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